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have u ever had a moment where you realize that what you think you knew was a fact is actually fiction, a time wen you realize that you have altered reality to suite your personal desires. if you have then i know how you feel, when i realized that for most of my life i have been believing a lie that i continuously told myself was true, i felt so bad.especially when it has to do with love. you end up realizing that you broke your own heart, sucks right? the line between reality and imagination is so thin that most of the time you don't realize that you've crossed it. it is so hard do deal with unpleasant things so you make them pleasant. i once thought i was head over heels for this dude, quite a while back when i was younger and very naive, i thought he was the perfect dude. i use to read too much into every one of our conversations and made excuses for him when he didn't do what i expected, it took me time, i mean a long time for me to grow up and realize that he was, is and will always be himself and never what i made him out to be for my self. it hurt for some time, but only then was i able to get over it and move on. just to clear the air i yarned the dude wat was up and all, dont really know why i did that but i dont see anything to it. i use to have this diary that i wrote in everytime i felt bad in high school, reading it back to myself today i realize that i am indeed very much growth up and ready to face reality just the was it is. all i can say now is " GOOD LUCK TO THOSE THAT WANT IT, CAUSE THOSE THAT NEED IT ALREADY HAVE IT."

freinds

hey, this here is my best friend. i love u n i miss u girl


the truth about the world in my perspective is people don't realize or deny to accept that friendship is as rear as it gets, there is always talk of 'true friend', who is a friend if not true. people have few or no friends in all their life time and no matter how you look at it you have fewer friends than you think, you cannot call someone your friends if they don't regard you as a friend in return. if you think about it you have countless acquaintances, hundreds of pals, a couple of dozen chums but less than a hand full of friends. because you smile at someone and visit the person regularly, exchange a few e-mails does not make you friends.

a friend will never say a word about you except in praise behind your back, not because they dont want to but becuase they dont have to. defending you everytime and not just when they can get a word in, they know whats up with you sometimes before you realise it, a friend is some one who knows you better that you know yourself. a friend will never try and change you, but will never give up perfecting you. your friend will never expect you to hate her enemies, but you will just because, only if you agree with it. your freind will never tell you to do anything, sometimes they wouldnt have to ask.

it's a shame though that some people dont have friends, and i pray for them to realise it soon, if you go out and you are always the last link when you all are walking together, or you are hardly a part of group conversations, or maybe even if you are always the last to be considered, think about the situation you are in and be honest to your self. not everybody needs a freind but alot of people want friends. i have seen so many people that need freinds to tell them when they do something silly, when i try and stretch a hand, both pride and the desperate desire for companionship slaps my hand away. all i can say is "GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO WANT IT, CAUSE THOSE WHO NEED IT ALREADY HAVE IT".

hi!!!!!!!!!!

hey everybody, as my first blog i wanted to introduce those that may be interested in following up on me, i am willing to write on anything and everything that i deem necessary to discuss. i will be poring out thought emotions and personal philosophies. i am an active mind i think it's high time i let some of my steam out. if you have any request please feel free to send me an e-mail at catisaac@hotmail.com and i will fit in your topic request. i am prepared to bring out all that is meant to be brought out any body offended should feel free to e-mail their concerns. i believe i am very open minded, and i try not to be bias, although i am human.