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have u ever had a moment where you realize that what you think you knew was a fact is actually fiction, a time wen you realize that you have altered reality to suite your personal desires. if you have then i know how you feel, when i realized that for most of my life i have been believing a lie that i continuously told myself was true, i felt so bad.especially when it has to do with love. you end up realizing that you broke your own heart, sucks right? the line between reality and imagination is so thin that most of the time you don't realize that you've crossed it. it is so hard do deal with unpleasant things so you make them pleasant. i once thought i was head over heels for this dude, quite a while back when i was younger and very naive, i thought he was the perfect dude. i use to read too much into every one of our conversations and made excuses for him when he didn't do what i expected, it took me time, i mean a long time for me to grow up and realize that he was, is and will always be himself and never what i made him out to be for my self. it hurt for some time, but only then was i able to get over it and move on. just to clear the air i yarned the dude wat was up and all, dont really know why i did that but i dont see anything to it. i use to have this diary that i wrote in everytime i felt bad in high school, reading it back to myself today i realize that i am indeed very much growth up and ready to face reality just the was it is. all i can say now is " GOOD LUCK TO THOSE THAT WANT IT, CAUSE THOSE THAT NEED IT ALREADY HAVE IT."